taking the week off
Hello. Feeling funny. Feeling too wanty and jealous and inadequate. (My photos will never be as good as ________. My paintings will never compare to __________. My house will never look like _________. Why can't I have ________ too?) I hate feeling like this. I need to snap out of it. I think need a break. Off Bloglines. Off Flickr. Off Facebook. Except for my NP photos and Echoes next Tuesday.
Yesterday was sunny and 60 and we went to the park for a long time. We have dinner plans with friends tonight. And a houseful expected for the second birthday extravaganza weekend. All steps in the right direction.
See you soon- it's almost time again. I'm pondering coming back in February with a vengeance, hopefully feeling better.
Hug, hug. Kiss, kiss.
Comments
I understand. I have been there. Often. Lately. But I hope you take solace in the fact that I greatly enjoy visiting this site because of what it is. Exactly what it is now.
Posted by: Willo | January 23, 2009 1:21 PM
Totally understand how your feeling...expect YOU are the reason my sewing isn't as good, my photos aren't as good or my house as clean. ;P
Posted by: Flipfloppingmamma | January 23, 2009 1:23 PM
I think there is something in the water. I live in Manhattan, KS, and I am feeling the same way! Hope the break helps!
Posted by: Sandy | January 23, 2009 1:33 PM
I hate when that feeling hits me. I totally understand.
Posted by: tracy | January 23, 2009 1:43 PM
I feel your funk too! Hoping that you'll(we'll) feel better soon. Maybe a few pictures of a new baby upon your comeback will help?? I'm hoping we have some to share by then!
Posted by: Beth H | January 23, 2009 1:59 PM
i can certainly relate...i've been coveting navy blue patent leather clogs for two months now, 3 sets of friends just bought beautiful, old houses, can't take a photo to save my life...hope your funk follows january out the door.
Posted by: ani | January 23, 2009 1:59 PM
I love your work--I'll miss you.
Posted by: Anita | January 23, 2009 2:04 PM
I know the feeling! There is a fine line between inspired and envious, and this time of year just pushes things over to the bad side. And you do realize you have lots of people on the other side of this same equation thinking the same things of you, right? :)
I've been considering a break, too, mostly just because I'm tired and have nothing interesting to say!
Have a good break. Gather some strength for February.
Posted by: amy h | January 23, 2009 2:05 PM
hugs hugs kiss kiss
For what it's worth, honey, when I think of homes that inspire, yours is on my list. :)
Have a nice break, but don't be too long. I love your voice.
Posted by: misschris | January 23, 2009 2:23 PM
I go there too - often about you! :)
Enjoy your break.
Posted by: Sarah Jackson | January 23, 2009 2:56 PM
I hear you lady. totally. keep in mind i love ya. your house is awesome. that basement will rock. your photos are great and I love your birds! don't let winter get the best of you. we need a date soon. hugs.
Posted by: rach | January 23, 2009 3:01 PM
i know that feeling... i know it well.
the blog world can be so inspiring, but makes me very wanty too. too much goodness, perhaps?
remember that what you see is just a glimpse...
enjoy your break! it's nice to live only in the 'real' world sometimes.
Posted by: liz | January 23, 2009 3:45 PM
I've been thinking about you and February.
Posted by: Mama Urchin | January 23, 2009 4:04 PM
I think you should take this time for finding inspiration. I spent 2008 having all those same thoughts; except for the painting. I can't wait to see what you come back with after your recharge.
Posted by: Rosa | January 23, 2009 4:06 PM
it's a strange balance, this online persona. so often i find camaraderie, love, and friendship here online. and other days, it just feels smothering and overwhelming in all the talent encompassing seemingly everyone *except me. i've felt that way about your photos before! your talent is off the hinges.
refresh yourself, renew yourself. you'll be missed.
Posted by: sarah | January 23, 2009 4:17 PM
I've had to take those sanity breaks before. Hope it's a restful week for you :-)
Posted by: Emily | January 23, 2009 4:57 PM
hoping your break is refreshing - and short! ;)
Posted by: kirsten | January 23, 2009 5:00 PM
Oh honey, I know that feeling. I know it WAY too well. I hope your break is refreshing and full of rest and joy and comfort. I'll be thinking about ya.
Big hugs to you.
Posted by: Stefani | January 23, 2009 5:32 PM
And did I mention, surely I have a hundred times, how very awe inspiring and talented YOU are. Seriously. You. Are. Amazing.
Posted by: Stefani | January 23, 2009 5:34 PM
oh, I feel you. i think we've all been there (even the ones out there we admire and feel we can't measure up to).
much love, and enjoy your break.
xo, K
Posted by: Kyrie | January 23, 2009 6:04 PM
If it makes you feel better, I always wish I was as happy as you:) Chin up, Friend.
Posted by: Courtney | January 23, 2009 6:48 PM
God, you know how I get that, too. In such a bad way. It's so, so good to take that break when you need it. Love you, friend.
Posted by: Grace | January 23, 2009 7:21 PM
hang in there sweetie ~ we'll all be missing you. please take care of your seriously talented self, okay? ;)
xoxo
Posted by: heather | January 23, 2009 7:46 PM
Look forward to your return and your inspiring posts.
Posted by: Avice | January 23, 2009 8:19 PM
so I feel the same way on a regular basis. I want to start a blog but think it will not measure up. I will try if you will come back. This time of year sucks but spring is coming... thank you for sharing with us.
Posted by: allison c | January 23, 2009 8:52 PM
i feel like that all. the. time. it's good to know that i am not the only one.
enjoy your blog break.
Posted by: amandajean | January 23, 2009 9:46 PM
Gosh, I really know how you feel. I love coming to your blog for inspiration. I'm thinking about packing away the computer for a week and just trying to BE.
Posted by: Laura | January 23, 2009 10:01 PM
i wonder if it is something in the air, in the season... i have been feeling so very much the same way lately. shifting, breaks, changes are in order.
Posted by: amisha | January 23, 2009 10:28 PM
i feel that way constantly, that's exactly why i have this little blog!! everybody needs a blogvacation! enjoy time being you
Posted by: jeanne | January 24, 2009 10:04 AM
i think we all have those moments. well, at least i do!
enjoy your time away. we'll miss you!
Posted by: erin | January 24, 2009 8:44 PM
like everyone else, i feel the same way very often. i hope you have a wonderful break and come back refreshed!
Posted by: amy | January 25, 2009 1:30 PM
I know how you feel. Sometimes I feel as though Im a rut of feeling that way, but somehow I snap out of it. I hope your time off does you good!
Posted by: Amber | January 25, 2009 1:53 PM
oh honey honey honey honey honey honey honey. so familiar with that feeling. so adore you. sending big fat hugs your way.
Posted by: emily | January 25, 2009 8:00 PM
and, um, how does that happen in one's appletini? is it coincidence? or done somehow intentionally? either way, clever.
Posted by: emily | January 25, 2009 8:01 PM
i was just thinking today.......i wish my house was as clean as alicia's.
:) enjoy your break.
Posted by: leslie | January 25, 2009 9:58 PM
What? are you kidding, your blog is so refreshing, don't change a thing!
Posted by: kerrie | January 26, 2009 8:24 AM
I only know you via your blog, but I think you, your art, your house and everything you make are fabulous. Give yourself a big hug! We think you are great!
Posted by: Rosalind Sew Sydney | January 26, 2009 7:30 PM
oh man, i know these feelings. though i don't always have the sense to walk away and take a break. enjoy. xo.
Posted by: molly | January 31, 2009 8:57 AM
i appreciate your honesty.
been there. wishing you the best.
Posted by: sarah | February 2, 2009 7:01 AM
i love your blog! this feeling sounds familiar to me ...
Posted by: julia puga | February 5, 2009 10:16 AM