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I'm having trouble with the blogging. Yes, I'm busy lately, but also, I just don't want to do it. One of the reasons that I've been having a hard time with the internet world I used to love is that it's unrealistic. And hard to live up to. And somewhat elitist. So in my own little attempt to keep it real, here goes:

I don't think I've ever seen a Woody Allen movie. I've watched the Hangover about 20 times.

I like listening to pop music with N. It makes me feel peppy.

I don't know if this shop thing is going to be worth it. Two months in and I'm leaning towards no. (Sigh.) It's great fun, don't get me wrong! But it's an awful lot of work for very. little. return. And by return, I mean money.

I haven't been feeling all that well lately. I'm pretty sure it's a lack of exercise. I have never been a fitness-y kind of gal, but this is possibly the laziest (exercise-wise) I've ever felt in my life. I need to change that. NOW.

I drastically reduced my feed subscriptions and flickr contacts this morning. It was time.

I haven't been sticking with my headache diet AT ALL lately and I can really tell. I need to try harder.

I haven't taken a film photo in over a year? Really? I bet that's right.

I hate those competition shows like American Idol and The Voice. SO boring.

But I secretly love watching that terrible Kardashian show. I justify it by saying that they are a tight-knit family and all work really hard. Well, except for Rob...

I am a judgmental person. My one resolution for this year is to try to be more empathetic and understanding.

I get really jealous of STUFF. I try not to, but I do. Everyone I know has an iPhone and/or an iPad. And we don't. And their kids are decked out in NorthFace this or that. And they drive nice cars- the kind that don't break down while driving in Western Kansas. And they go on all kinds of fancy trips. For us there's always more pressing stuff to spend money on. You know, like groceries. Deep down I know I'm silly to feel bad. How on earth will I teach my children that stuff is not that important, if it bothers me so much?! My strategy so far is I just try to hide it.

I eat pretty well- lots of fruits and veggies. But I also eat WAY too much butter. And I have NO willpower when it comes to carbs.

We primarily shop at Walmart grocery store. GASP!

I loved the Twilight books. I held off reading them forever, but then when I started I couldn't put them down for like two weeks straight and then finally, I emerged to clean up the house and cook dinner. Also, this series. Entertaining sci-fi smut. But I was OBSESSED.


So there. I hope I can think of something to come back here and talk about soon.


Comments

Oh Alicia, you crack me up. I'm judgmental too and I get jealous of stuff. I haven't been blogging either and I'm starting to wonder if it all just seems too artificial. I don't know, I always feel like I should blog but then...

This was refreshing! I found your blog a couple years ago, when I was looking for an art apron tutorial. I've been reading ever since, and might have never commented before right now. I'm sorry about that.

Thanks for keeping it real. I could say 'ditto' to everything on that list :) Rob Kardashian is so lazy!

Um, I think I could have written that list, except I watch all the Bravo Housewives shows instead of the Kardashians.

My last two fancy trips have been primarily funded out of the generosity of others (bless them!).

Sometimes I feel like most of my paycheck goes to wal-mart (my kids eat LOTS).

At least you read.

So there :)

i adore you. and this list? it just makes me adore you more.

This is a great post. My filter in blogging is more that my in-laws sometimes read. But I like reading people who keep it real.

You seem to think this is a list of embarrassing things -- they're not!

And I think it can be easy to feel wanty about STUFF in the area where we live (and I think particularly in your elem school and mine, which have so many of the mansion people). We don't have an iphone or ipad either. Shatto milk is a treat (that we haven't been able to afford for a while). The kids who open the car doors at school dropoff are confused by our non-automatic sliding door. :)

Sorry the resale shop hasn't been more profitable. I came out in the red last year! It's hard to build something.

I always enjoy reading, but don't write if you don't enjoy it!

you know what i really love? shahs of sunset. it's so... oh. it's just so SO.

i get jealous over nice things too. i just simply don't know how people do it (besides not eating gluten free and having outrageous medical bills). just buying food and household items makes me want to cry.

I love this! I could have written just about everything on that list...except substitute Honey BooBoo for the Kardashians :)

I SO could have written this post....if I had blogged any since October!! I blame it on the holidays but really???

I am also judgmental of other people's stuff. I HATE where we live and I hate that I don't have an ipad and I want a Northface jacket! (expect I'm 6ft tall and it's never going to fit me so I might as well give up!)

We should all get together and have a no iphone, no ipad, shop at the cheap stores club. :)

You rock!

i'm with emily.
this list just makes me adore you more.
i think about you often... especially when i see my FAVORITE bracelet! xx

btw... i can barely keep up with any of this internet stuff. but i derive so much pleasure when i do.
i think i just have to learn to balance better.

oh. i just clicked on a facebook link and found myself here and you. just made. my day. thank you!! adding you to my very slimmed down reader :)

Thank you. I love your honesty - it feels like a list I would write -if I blogged. Thank you for being real.

PS - i have one of your bird paintings, I just moved it to a wall where I will see it more. I do love your art.

giggle...I love your confessions. I too feel all want. It is part of why I won't live near my parents. They live in a keeping up with the jones area and i started breaking out in wantiness. Just going to the grocery makes me edgy. We do take trips, but stay with family, drive and bring our own food. Hang in there. There are many of us out there.

I can put a checkmark beside all of those (well except the Karadashian's show, but we cut out cable to save pennies). My student loans are killing us, boo!

I'm not sure if I've ever commented or not but I really enjoy your blog...and this post? Perfection. I started feeling the same way so I moved my space to something more private. A place I felt comfortable sharing all my imperfections and not being judged for it. I don't get as many readers but it's so much better that way.

Thank goodness there are other moms out there like me! Hooray! I am not sure I've commented on your blog before, but I read you through my RSS feed. I think if you are true to yourself, then who gives a rats bum what other people think? I certainly don't and neither should you. People in the blogosphere are sometimes "hard" to take, so I read blogs of people who have the same interests as me. Sorry about the shop, do what you love and if it's not worth the effort, keep doing it - but just on a personal level. Sometimes, the return isn't always about money. I've also found as I get older (ahem...) that I am not so interested in stuff anymore. One day, the desire for stuff just goes away. It will happen for you as well, but in the meantime OWN it! I hope you keep blogging, but do what is best for you. cheers! PS. I have two growing boys, all I do is cook and feed them - oh and wash their clothes. So glamorous! hahaha

You rock.
I can relate to so much that you said. I'm at walmart every week for food. It is cheap and I do feel bad shopping there.
I miss the old blogging days sometimes. Ah well. It was good to "catch up with you" here today. :)

you are the best. and this list is right up there, too. xoxoxo

LOVE

Love this post!

Judgemental? HA! I call that common sense! Envious? Guess what? You're American- we all are! Bad TV? I've got it worse- I'm a Duck Dynasty addict. Sorry you don't feel like blogging much, you do entertain me while I'm on call at the hospital and spending little or no time with my children. XXX Chin Up BABY!

I love your blog--and your confessions just make you more real--and more likable!

I know how you feel about blogging. What used to be so fun just kind of changed. I do love your list and thanks for the new book idea. I'm always looking for something fun to read.

oh how i love this post. have you read the renegade mom. she has a great post about the perfect mom blog phenomena. she's not for the light hearted, though. it does feel like some people use their blog as a platform for their other works. there is nothing wrong with that. i just tend to prefer a good blog to a platform.

Hi Alicia I've just found your blog through the 'habit' blog. Loved reading this post, I too feel that most blogs I read seem to illustrate a perfect life and I do relate to a lot of the pointers you wrote about too (loved the twilight books!). Hope you keep writing your blog.

I just wanted to say again how happy this post makes me! I read it and remember that I am NOT alone. I happened upon your site one day a few years ago while looking up a craft and I seriously am hooked. I love that you work with what you have, thrift and live simply. I love the recipes and sewing projects. I had "one of those days" yesterday when I got into my used mommy wagon and went to the store for groceries. I think it was Fashionable Mommy Day since every one of the women in the store were wearing $100 rubber boots and toting around Coach purses and buying lovely things to decorate their homes. I stuck to my list and reminded myself that although I sometimes get jealous of "stuff" that people have......I don't NEED any of it. I realize how lucky I am to be a stay at home mom, although we do make sacrifices we have everything we need and more. I came home from the store, read your post again, had a hot coffee, cuddled on the couch and read some story books. Completely fulfilled :) Thanks again for being real!

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